Weeek 15: October 19th to 25th

The magic of podcast!

I love podcasts. But this hasn't always been this way. At first, I really didn't like them. It was something like "I need to listen so carefully so this could be a significant experience for me and my brain!" and this was so stressful for me. But with time I've realized that the magic of these audios is exactly that! You don't have to be REALLY ONLY FOCUS on the podcast because listening is something that you usually do, and when you get used to hearing the information from the podcast, it's even easier to get the ideas from the podcast. 

There are as many types of podcasts as types of books. There are ones about reviews of things, like books, movies, tv shows, etc. There are meditation podcasts or podcasts that talk about self-empowerment, or the ones that tell the news, and it's so amazing to have so much information that you can go walking on the street and you just listen to it!

My favorite podcasts are about science, literature, reviews about movies (because I don't like that much watching movies), short news of the day and meditations. Some day I'll share my playlist of podcasts in Spotify.

Week 14: Octber 12th to 18th

I'm here to talk about a bunch of unconnected things... because that's what we do here. And by we I refer to myself and my mind and my ideas.

Have you ever thought about the relation between your feelings, emotions and your gut? Well, I'm one of the people in the world who must deal with the terrible pain of irritable bowel syndrome, or IBS to make it shorter. What I didn't know till last year how much was this related to my emotions, and how sometimes my physical pain was just a response to my stress or sadness. There was when I remembered one of my morphophysiology classes (from when I was studying Bioengineering) that the teacher made us prepare a presentation about the digestive system and I read that the colon was actually the organ with the biggest irrigation from the nervous system. This was better explained by my teacher, but only until the last year, I realized how much truth was that. In the middle of the process, in one of many visits to the doctor for the terrible pain (once I did believe that I was having appendicitis), he explained to me how was related the colon with the stomach, and why I was feeling nauseous. The thing is that the colon needs to do very strong movements and when it does them, it touches the walls of other intestines, like the stomach, and that's when I had the reflex of nausea and wanting to vomit so bad. After the scientific process, a lot of meditation and a good conversation, I realized that talking about a specific person was causing me dizziness, nausea and abdominal pain. When I realized this, it was just like the best new I ever get. I wasn't going to die because of my aches! at least not if I could control them, and knowing the source of the pain (besides beans and spicy food) was a great thing to know. 

In other news, the climate has been so crazy that I'm patiently waiting for my flu, or laryngitis, or something like that. I don't know how do I stay not sick with the daily climate change that I suffer when I go and come back from work. 

Having the kids out of school is like: there is nothing to do, but it's so nice to hear your own thoughts. Yeah, this is the free week in October for schools. It's breathing for us but the truth is that it's never enough. And what am I doing during this time? Spending as much as time I could be in my bed. 

I think I have nothing else to say. 

Week 13: October 5th-11th

Doctor House: My Favorite show ever

"House M.D [Medical Diagnosis]" is a show about Gregory House, a doctor specialized in Medical Diagnosis, which means that he is one of the few people able to find out very strange illnesses in his patients. We may think this is a regular show about a doctor, but his personality is so different and unique that it gives that special touch to this show, and actually was what made me fall in love with it.

House has a very own way to see reality. His maxim is "Everybody lies" and this was something that really hit me when I saw it. Every time he has a patient, he is the last person to see it, he cares more about the results of the exams than what the person may say because the most probable is that the patient will lie. In general, at the end of every chapter, he must go to talk with the patient basically because he is missing information, the patient is about to die, the tests don't show more data to know what is the correct treatment, and the patient must have been lying about something. Then, House explains that if he doesn't know the truth he can not find the cure and the next step in the procedure will be "dying" (with the coldest and cruelest way to say it, including in several times irony and sarcasm).

Of course, the show is not only about him. He is the head of the department of medical diagnosis, so he has a team made of three people. In the first seasons (are eight in total) there are Cameron (a sweet, caring  women who falls in love with him ), Chase (A rich cute sexy doctor), and Foreman (the black neurologist doctor (it's not my intention to be racist but is to show the perspective that House gives about him)). I think that from the 4th to 5th season these doctors quite to their job, and House has a new team.

Every chapter treats very rare diseases and the different methods that House use to deal with the lies of the patients make every 45 minutes worth it. Besides, there is a lot of drama and fun, comming from the human relationships on the show, and the hilarious sarcasm and irony from House.

Now, why do I like it so much? 

And this is where I relate this with my life...

I consider my self a very transparent person. I can tell that I don't have many secrets, and the ones I have are not very relevant. My life has been so clear for the people who know me that actually, it has been a disadvantage for me sometimes, but I have no interest in changing that. I like being transparent, and not hiding when I like or I don't like something... or someone. But, and this is what I learned from this magnificent show, and yes, I didn't have any idea of this and this had never gone through my mind, the fact that I'm transparent doesn't necessarily mean that all the people that surround me are transparent too...

When I watched this show, and I kind of realize that actually everybody lies, and not all the time, but everybody is a potential lier made me feel so vulnerable, and I started thinking on how every single person I had known in my life could have been lying to me in many ways... That was hard broking and actually happened in one of those hard years of teenage. Even it was significant learning, I negate this from time to time to my self because it's really hard to think about how people could be lying to you, and not even noticing because what is a lie for me is not for someone else, until this year...again.

I'm in a moment of my life that I'm rediscovering that people lie, and do so without compassion, or measurement, or thinking about the other... And that's why I wanted to write a little bit from this show in this blog, which has become a place where I'm not only exercising my writing but expressing some ideas, that I would really like to continue doing.

Now some nice pics and quotes from the show:

And now his maxim:

Thanks for reading.

Week 12: September 28th to October 4th

This exercise is pretty basic. I really was thinking about trying to make a different type of text, but today one teacher told us about poetry that you can't write poetry if you haven't read poetry. Actually, I haven't read anything in English, besides academic texts from the university of short quotes from books. And of course the lyrics of a bunch of songs.

So my challenge for this week is to read something in English and try to imitate it so then I can produce something original. (This could be a really interesting exercise, just to make a challenge every week.)

By now I will tell you about this week. Recently (and parallel to my absence in the blog) I've been living some processes in my life from what I've been learning a lot of things, especially in the social aspect of my life. I had always believed that I had some kind of Asperger because there are some interactions between people that I simply don't understand. Now I know that my parents didn't give me the tools to develop in society, but that's another story. Now I'm learning kind of how to behave in some situations that last year I didn't know how to handle it. Now I know a lot of things that I didn't know then, and I'm very proud of it.  (Notice how many times I'm repeating the word "now", that's the only moment I'm living in.)

So this week I had the obstacle of the flu in my life. At the beginning of the week, I was feeling basically terrible, and a tried to do the things I needed to do, but I didn't do them. On Monday and Tuesday, I didn't have to go to work because of Rosh Hashana, the Jewish new year celebration, (By the way, Shaná Tova Umetuká for you, we're in 5780 according to this calendar).  So my work week started on Wednesday, with some troubles in the morning with some kids, but nothing out of the normal. This day I was feeling veeeery sick, and I had a lot of things to do because on Thursday we had the Math Contest in the school. That day was really heavy too, and I was also kind of in a bad mood, but I remembered the things I've learned and I made the effort to be well, so then I could go to give a private class and go training roller derby. On Friday I woke up feeling even better, but not so good yet, and I had good classes at my school.

I think this is enough for today (actually I think never it's enough because in my mind there are always things to write).

Update Entry: October the second

Trying to explore different writing styles it's hard for me!
Abandoning the blog too. This was really a commitment to my self.
I do hope to get everything done. I've been dealing with a lot of things lately (as always) but sometimes we just have different capacity to fulfill the demand of our life.

The new? I'm adding my twitter around here.